new do'

so i got my haircut last night! a couple of my good friends from work came over last night & my hair guy michael came over & we had a hair cut party, it was a lot of fun! :)

here's my new 'do...i need to get better pictures but these will do for now...

yes pretty much the same as i had it before only SHORTER. ;) i've gone this short before, and it's an "A" line so it is shorter in the back, so this weekend hopefully i will get better pictures of it. i didn't color it, i haven't colored my hair in over 4 years. i just don't like to do that as i have natural auburn and blondish highlights. yeah! and yes, i am that white/pale. i live in california but i still have that irish/german skin tone. lol!

today was a good day! even though no one would let us go home early from work today {you would've thought...}. we did get a free lunch though. it was our receptionist, Jessica's last day as she is beginning grad school next week! so we went out to lunch with her {team admin...ha ha}. it was nice, i'm going to miss her company. i pretty much like everyone i work with. there are only an elite few i don't really get along with...actually i do get along with them but just do not agree with the way they handle things. so i try to stay clear of those people. ;)

at any rate the night got better when i got home Haylee and Tim were both happy to see me and we went out to Wing Nuts tonight which is a cool wing place. we ate and then we drove around and i just love doing that. we have some of our best conversations in the car just driving. the other day i asked Tim to just drive us up a mountain and he did. we got no where fast, but it was so neat. it's amazing the places you'll find when you just aimlessly drive. there's just something relaxing about it, i love it. i know, i'm weird. Haylee loves it too, she takes naps or joins in our conversations. she cracks us up big time. if you ever want a BIG laugh, just talk to Haylee...she will make ya laugh GUARANTEED.

hope everyone has a super weekend...yay for the long weekend!! no true plans for us, but to relax and on Monday go to a party at a friend's house. :)

happy bday eric!

today is my baby brother Eric's 24th birthday! i don't think he reads my blog...but i just wanted to give a shout out to him. ;) also yesterday was my sister Elizabeth & her husband Al's 8 year wedding anniversary!!! happy anniversary Liz & Al! love you guys! happy birthday Eric! i love ya!

the pic to the left is when Eric came to California last (a couple of years ago now...) to visit us! we miss him...hopefully him & Liz can come again soon. :) or maybe i can go visit them sometime...

have a great day everyone!

my chicken smells amazing

i'm just waiting for dinner to cook & thought i would blog some thoughts. :) i'm making stuffed cornish game hens (Tim and i always goof around and call them cornish GAY hens...lol. not to offend anyone, but kinda funny...well we think so), green beans & mashed potatoes. don't worry, i'm not completely domesticated, the hens are from Costco (they are already full cooked, just need warming), the green beans are frozen out of the bag and the mashed potatoes are THE BEST boxed mashed potatoes i have EVER had in my life...thanks to Betty Crocker. i love that lady. she rocks. ;)

at any rate now that i've typed a whole paragraph about my dinner...ha ha what's on MY mind? i had a pretty decent Monday all in all. i was receptionist today also and since 2 of my 4 partners were in today i did a lot of running around for them as well. it can sometimes get challenging taking care of 4 (completely different in every way) partners - - but after a year of it, i think i'm managing rather well. sometimes i still get "talked to" about how things "should've" been done...probably once a month actually. but other than that, things are going pretty well.

i am getting SO super excited for the events coming up (see my post from yesterday). and even more excited because i've been thinking and praying about the whole photography thing and i have some pretty good ideas and plans for the near future. :) i just hope everything turns out the way i want it...but more importantly the way God's planning for it to unfold in my life. i just know it's what i am meant to do.

ok...better go check on my chickens...i'm soooo hungry! :D

one more week!

well there is only one more week until school starts! Haylee is super excited about going into the 1st grade...she asks me everyday when school will start. her first day is Sept 4th! her first soccer game is Sept 6th and soccer pictures are Sept 7th! things are going to start heatin' up soon and we will once again be super busy. :)

this year i signed up to be "team mom" for her soccer team. thankfully there is another mom who also signed up, so we'll be doing this together. she was off work last week so she ordered the banner and stopped by Joann's to get the fabric to make the girls' hair ties. she seems super nice as does our coach this year. there are 11 little girls on the soccer team this year. the Bumble Bees! i'm excited - i have my first "team mom" meeting this week on Thurs night. yipeee!

God has also been tugging at my heart to join a women's Bible study. so (not oddly enough) one is starting up in Sept that i am going to join. it's called "a modern girls guide to Bible study" and it has a cute theme and it actually sets you up for fall, winter and next spring - so almost a year's worth of Bible studying! i'm a little nervous as i've never been to a Bible study at this church (sadly and i've been going almost 3 years now!) - - so we shall see what it has to offer.

it'll definitely be busy with homework (with Haylee), tuesday night women's Bible study, wednesday night soccer practices and saturday soccer GAMES...but hey that's what life is ALL about, right?! ;) at least i'll be WELL rounded! ha ha! i do have ALL intentions of taking Haylee & Miley on walks after we get home each day also. lately we've just been walking around the block which equals to about 1 mile if we walk it once. 1 mile doesn't sound like much, but the girls (both Haylee AND Miley) just LOVE it! it's funny if i don't feel like it, Haylee BEGS me to do it, she's my little motivator, EXACTLY what i need because otherwise i would just procrastinate. ;) hee hee!

if i remember correctly this time at work speeds up a little and then slows down immensely from Oct-Dec and then we start getting busy again. so that's nice i don't have to deal with a busy life ALL of the time. well, we will see. hopefully i remembered correctly, ha!

today i did ALOT of work around the house. the upstairs was in DESPERATE need of some tender loving care. i cleaned out closets, scrubbed toilets, washed linens that have been laying around for weeks! i got a lot done! i even took my car to the car wash...but that did not go so well. Tim and i took our cars together and mine took 30 mins longer! they were just dumb about it all. i didn't even give the guy a tip at the end because they would ignore me when i asked them how long it would take (i did bug them, but hello...Tim's car was done 30 mins before mine and we both got there the same time...unacceptable!). i felt bad, but then again everyone treated me unfairly. i just wish i could write that company and tell them how poorly it went. i'll just stick to me and Haylee washing it. she loves to do it with her momma anyway. :) and we have fun!

oh man...i'm so tired! hope you all have a great week!! this week i have to drop Miley off at the groomer's, dye my friend's hair, take Haylee to soccer practice, have a team mom meeting and i'm getting my hair cut (my two friends are coming over and my hair stylist is going to cut all three of our hair, yipeee!).

oh yeah...did i mention that i'll be taking a trip to Mexico next month to help build a house? :) oh yes....it's going to be a busy fall for me!! yay! ;)

enter my world...photo

hey hey hey well tonight was a GREAT experience for me! since i have discovered that photography IS what i would like to do with my life i have had the opportunity to chat with some people who ARE photographers and working it as their career! it has been the biggest blessing ever! our {mine & Tim's} friend's girlfriend's mom {got that?} is a photographer and i had the chance to go to her house tonight, meet her, eat some sushi AND talk photo! how amazing is that?

i got a lot of great ideas and i am soooo excited to use them in my future. she is an awesome person and it's just amazing to see someone JUST LIKE ME who is interested in the same exact things i am. it really is! i'm not constantly around other people who have the same vision so to chat it up for a couple of hours with someone who shares the same passion is just wonderful for me!

i did realize i need to start saving UP my money for this industry because it is NOT an inexpensive one. ;) i already knew that going into it. but the first step IS purchasing a Canon camera. thankfully i only need a body because one of my other photo friends {from high school} is a photographer also and she is going to send me a starter lens...get this...for free! how blessed am i?! i'm stoked. :) camera bodies are not cheap though...a good one runs about $300-$500 easily. that is for the bottom of the line ones too. but i'm willing to spend that much to get my career started! yeah!

so i just thought i would share...i'm so passionate about this and as you can see on my blog roll, i'm all about sharing my friend's blogs and ideas, etc. we are all photographers, but we all have different aspects to share with the world. it's art and it can be different in many ways. i love it!

this week

geesh i'm so sorry i have not been a good blogger buddy. :) this week is just a'flying by too! so on Saturday we had a dual birthday party for my niece and Haylee's 6th birthdays. my niece turned 6 on August 6th and Haylee turns 6 on August 23rd (Saturday). it was a lot of fun and we had over 30 people at our place {at least our house is decent size for it!}. Haylee got a TON of cute gifts and she just had a blast. :) thanks for all of you who came, it was a lot of fun.

Sunday we went out to brunch, we were so tired from the night before! it was a nice day, we also did a little shopping and just drove around. we went to the jetty and the weather was just amazing. nothing beats this Southern California weather...nothing.

yesterday, Monday, was a very decent day for a Monday actually. i was surprised. i really had a great day at work and everything was just peachy. except somehow i pulled a muscle in my neck and ow...it really hurts to sleep on that. today, Tuesday, i had to be at work at 7am, so i got off at 4. it was a nice day today too actually. until i got home really...then one of my friends called with some horrible news and i just ask you pray for my friend. God knows her circumstance and situations and i just pray you just lift her up. thank you...

tonight my neck is hurting SO badly and i don't know if it's just my allergies acting out again {because they do A LOT} or if it's acid reflux or something of the like because my throat just feels like it's on fire. :( i'm fallin' apart tonight guys! i cried because my neck hurts so bad i can't even turn it. i don't usually ache like this, so i'm not sure what i did...whether i just slept on it wrong or pulled a muscle, but i took some motrin so hopefully i will start feeling less pain in the neck! ow!!

tomorrow is a big day for me! i am going over to my friend Andrea's mom's house. Andrea's mom is a photographer! :) so i requested i meet her and have her talk to me and give me the ins and outs of the life of a real live photographer. i'm nervous and excited and anxious!! this should be fun, i still have to write down some questions i have for her. you know how it is, you get there and forget everything you ever wanted to ask. ;) there are SO many questions and i just pray God leads me to the right people to help me attain my goals of becoming a photographer. i already have some things in mind, but i don't want to share them at this time because i'm really still in the brain storming stage. ;) but soon! so be prepared for that! i just KNOW this is something i was meant to do. i'm so artistic and photo is something i really CAN share my creativity and my flair. i'm super stoked! yeah!!

Friday night i think we have plans to do a few things as a family and Haylee and I are going to make her birthday cake on Fri night. it has been a De Mers' family tradition {just between me, Tim and Haylee} to let her eat birthday cake on the MORNING of her birthday. that's right, bday cake for breakfast. ;) this is the ONLY day she is allowed to do so! she LOVES it!! so she picked out the Pillsbury FUN-fetti cake with the PINK frosting {would you expect anything less?}. so i'm excited to do that with her....pictures WILL be taken. ;) promise!

i do have a bunch of pics from Saturday's party, which i did put on facebook. but just in case you don't have a facebook i have all intentions of making a slideshow after her actual bday on Saturday, so i can add all of them together. she's growing up so big so fast. i just cannot believe it!

so i will post more on Saturday night or Sunday! take care....love to you all...

ketchup

well today started off pretty darn ROCKY. but i managed t make the best of it and it is ending {since it's only 8pm} on a fairly good note. :)

work has been incredibly laid back this week {except maybe for Monday} and i'm worried tomorrow is going to be hectic, but i don't think so since it is Friday {hurray!}. i have to get a few ends tied up for the girls' party on Saturday!! i ordered the balloons last night at Party City and ordering the pizzas tomorrow from Costco. yipeeee...oh and i got all the goody bags made and just need the CANDY and ready to tie those up! i love throwing parties, it's stressful and messy and crazy and creative and all of those words describe ME! i love it!

i should be cleaning up my house tonight since i will be shopping tomorrow but i'm not. :) i am going to clean all night tomorrow night. it is going to be a cleaning partaaaaay at my house {Tim, Haylee and I are the only ones invited! ha ha!}. i love it when we clean beforehand, it's the AFTERhand i'm NOT so fond of. LOL! oh well...there are pros and cons of having the party house.

okie dokie...well we're all fed {Tim grilled steak & salmon tonight! yum!}...Haylee's showered and i am going to try to finish off reading Ender's Game tonight. i'm so into it. it's a pretty good book! i have to start looking for my next novel also....i have a mini-collection so it shouldn't be hard. i'm remembering now how much i LOVE to read. good night everyone...

it's no lie...

...i'm a busy lady lately! i honestly feel like a complete SLACKER when it comes to my blog these days. i've been thinking of nixing BOTH of them all together but then think of all the time and effort and energy i used to put into them and get sad....LOL. so i keep them and update them when i can. i know you don't expect any more of me. ;)

i think during the school year too i will have more to say about Haylee. as of now she's just enjoying her summer and getting ready to start SOCCER in a couple of SHORT weeks! she's stoked. i am planning her bday party for this Saturday too! been busy this week with that alone! it is going to be a duel bday party with her cousin Lilly who turned 6 on August 6th! Haylee doesn't turn 6 until August 23rd, but we decided to do a dual party since Lilly will be in Hawaii on Haylee's actual birthday...and she missed it last year due to that {they are blessed enough to get a trip to Hawaii every year!}. so anyway we are doing a dual POOL/High School Musical party this year on August 16th! yay!

oh in regard to the Linkin Park concert, it ROCKED and all of my pics i took are on facebook, so log into that to view them there. ;) leave me comments to let me know what you think! i loved it, had such a great time.

today was very laid back at work...last night my friend stayed over and we had super great fun. my friend Lisa is awesome! she makes me laugh so hard everyday. i'm easily amused, but she is just funny!! we got home, made some CPK pizzas...drank some BEER...played some Trivial Pursuit...played with Haylee until she went to bed...watched some lame stuff on tv...surfed the web...talked and talked...and played Scrabble until midnight! it was super, i loved it. :) i love just chillin' with my friends. work was 'lax today and i got a lot done actually...weird that it was so slow for a Wednesday though. it kind of worries me for the rest of the week...ha ha!

anyway...hmmmm....i don't know what else to say. i need to get off of here and prep for tomorrow...Haylee is going on a field trip to watch some Pirate show/musical and i need to wash her shirt for that and find her HSM cd for the party and get ready to make some tamales and rice for dinner and find something for me to wear to work tomorrow. oh one last thing...i took Miley in today to get her sutures removed and she had an allergic reaction to the staples, so we have to leave her cone on for another 2 days! and put a heating pad on her twice a day! yeah right! i am not sure how all THAT'S going down...LMBO...but we'll try. ;) have a super night everyone....

i'll be ROCKIN' out

so TONIGHT is Projekt Revolution which is a concert Tim and i have started going to {since last year, lol} and we just love it. let's get something straight here, we love concerts. period. you may think that since we're parents and we've been married so long we shouldn't do those things, but we feel otherwise. we love music. :)

we especially love Linkin Park. they are {both Tim's and mine} our FAVORITE band ever. and if you have never been to a LP concert and you actually like LP, you are truly missing out. they are awesome. i just love them live! i think they are better live than on the radio or on cd. true!

so in a few short hours we will be heading up to the concert...also playing is The Bravery, Chris Connel, Ashes Divide and a bunch of other bands i've never heard of. ;) and SADLY {more like heart-breaking} they won't allow digital or film cameras inside. :( so...i will be taking pics from my cell phone though, believe that! but they won't be the best. oh well. hopefully they will have some of the cool venues they had last year like a free picture they email to you and last year i played a game and won better seats! so that was cool. we shall see what's in store for us tonight.

i bet you are wondering where Haylee is....no she is too young to go to this LP concert {although she LOVES LP and has since she was very young. she used to fall asleep to them in the car when she was a baby, which is funny since they are an alternative ROCK band! ha ha!}. anyway, Haylee is spending the weekend {last night and tonight} at her Uncle Mark & Aunt Kathy's house! trust me, she is stoked. she's been begging for a weekend with them. they get to see what it's like to have a little GIRL since they only have one child, my nephew Noah. :) girls are much different than boys. i bet Kathy is lovin' it though! she text me this morning and at 8:30am were already SHOPPING at Target for Haylee! LOL! that was so funny. Haylee is such a spoiled little girl. :P

this is only the 2nd concert Tim and i have been to by ourselves! LOL! the first one was a couple years (maybe last year?) and it was Good Charlotte at this small venue and it was amazing. i loved it. i really love GC too. Benji and Joel rock. anyway so this should be fun for us tonight. :)) a ROCKIN' date night! ya! i can't wait to post some pics...yeah! have a great Sunday everyone!

wow a difference a DAY makes!

so you all know how big of a baby i was being yesterday...all emotional {emo} and such. well this morning i was almost feeling that way and i looked in the mirror and said "hold on a minute...YOU are going to have a GREAT day". :)

it must have worked because i did. at first it was off to a rocky start, but by mid-day i was singing and humming my favorite songs! i didn't feel sensitive and things that usually bother me {or did yesterday} did not really phase me. i think i just gave it over to God this morning and once i did that, boom, things changed. i think as a human i just want to FIX ALL THINGS and i just have to be {wo}man enough to admit that i cannot fix all things...i cannot even come close to fixing all of the issues going on around me. there's too much hate and evil going on, it's out of my hands. :) once i realized that i need to let go and let GOD, i felt ten times better.

i just realized also that i haven't been doing my pilates. after i got my tattoo i couldn't do it since it was on my back. but now that is has healed {and it has healed rather NICELY...i la la love my tat!} i can go back to getting physical with my pilates! woo hoo! i love it. ;) it relaxes me and elongates my muscles {i'm totally stealing my pilates dvd wording, LOL}. anyhoo...so next week i will be getting back into that gear. yeah!! i am thinking after Miley gets her sutures removed i will start taking her on walks too. she really needs them. hyper active crazy dog.

now i have the weirdest story to tell you...

yesterday i got on myspace {i am hardly EVER on there, i don't like myspace} to look at some family photos and i realized i got a message in my inbox. so i opened it...and oddly enough it was an email from my ex-boyfriend Rob. very very weird! i dated Rob for maybe a month in tech school in the Air Force, he was the boyfriend i had before i dumped him {for Tim, hee hee...but Rob was long distance anyway so it worked out...don't think i am evil}. anyway he just said hi and wanted to know how i was doing {he knew i married Tim and we were actually stationed at the same Air Force base in Utah so Tim met him and Rob saw me when i was pregnant w/Haylee}. so my immediate reaction was to delete it, so i did. LOL. i don't understand why he emailed, it's just awkward. anyway i got on myspace today {world record for me...because i realized i still didn't look at pictures of family yesterday as i was distracted by Rob's email} and oddly enough {round 2!} Rob had sent another email saying "sorry if i pissed you off Mel, but i was just checking in and wanted to say hi". WEIRD right?!! well i finally emailed him and told him that Tim and i are doing GREAT and told him about Haylee and told him we live in CA now. he immediately emailed back and said that was great and he was happy and he has 2 kids that he sees every weekend and he's doing well. we left it at that, ha ha!

anyway...later on in the day Tim calls me. he goes...you will not believe WHO i just saw at lunch today {he went to Del Taco}. Tim ran into his ex-girlfriend Danielle, whom he has not seen in over 10 years! RANDOM! first Rob emailing me and now Tim runs into Danielle! how crazy is life today?!! well needless to say, he steered clear of HER and didn't talk to her - but had to tell me. of course i told him about Rob too. but we just think this is HILARIOUS and CRAZY all at once.

i wonder why God has us cross paths with our exes today? it got me thinking of how BLESSED i am to have dumped Rob and marry Tim {and i am thinking Tim's feelings are mutual...LOL}. i mean, looking at Rob now his myspace page is named "Party Rob"...not what i would've wanted in a husband i will tell you that. i think if anything these instances got us to thinking of how lucky and blessed God has made us. i cannot see myself with any other person, especially the ones i've dated in the past {ugh.}. i am pretty sure he feels the same way too. it made me think of that Garth Brooks country song...some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. :) if you know the words to it, you know what i mean. what a crazy thing have happen, all in the same day.

i'm ending this post {you are prob thinking...finally!} with this. with everything going on around me that i cannot control. i KNOW i can control one thing and that is my faithfulness to Christ. if i keep this, He will come and comfort me and take me to places i want to be instead of the dreery places i could be {mentally, emotionally}. i trust in Him and Him alone to lead me to the people that i need to be led to in order to witness in such a manner to make them believe. i feel like He's calling me sometimes and it's hard to hear when i am trying to take on the matters of this WORLD. so i am just trying to say...if you just stop. and listen. you can get a better hearing and a better vision of what it is He is calling you to do. ;) xoxo...mels.

on the verge...

...of tears. you get a big knot in your throat and it chokes you up until you give in to that urge and just break down. you can't think of anything else except for that tightness embodying your being. you may not even have one big reason to have this emotional outburst, but you just feel a wave of this heavy emotion taking over you. beckoning you to just let loose and cry.

i'm not sure...i'm not usually a sad person...but today i just feel like crying. some days i do. i don't know if it is something is should get checked out or not, it's not like i feel like this everyday. but sometimes things just overwhelm me to the utmost and i just get this tight lump in my throat. i think it comes from being so empathetic to those around me and not even people i know sometimes i just read the news or hear about someone else's issue and i just feel for that person like i know them.

if a friend or someone at work is in a bad mood and i get the brunt of it, that affects me too. i don't think i am OVERLY sensitive. i have been called sensitive and i believe that is true, TO AN EXTENT. you all don't know me well enough to know some things i've been through to make me into the person i am today, so i honestly don't think you could just claim me as being overly sensitive. there are reasons for that.

today i think it just comes from me being really excited about something that i thought was going to pan out well and in the end it didn't go the way i planned {i kind of didn't give it a chance, but the opportunity was revealed to another party who did not feel the same way i felt, so i got hurt}. i think i just got in the way of something i should just let go...but i tend to do that a lot. i'm a little clingy like that. :) some friends like it, some don't. i get it. well after i thought about what i did, i truly understood but - i am hard on myself {again, think underlying issues maybe from the past...perhaps there is more to a person you don't understand}. at any rate this kind of started my day off wrong. i could have easily turned it around, but let's face it, i didn't and i got angry. the anger turned into sadness and well, hence the lump.

not only that but a few other things i have been going through...just some emotions having to do with one of my good friends...things she is going through. it is hard on her and i'm trying to be there and it's bothering me that i cannot figure out a solution or help her get rid of her hurt and pain. i want to take it all away. i don't want her to feel anything hurtful or painful and i just want to be there for her, she tells me i'm doing a great job...i believe her, i just wish there was something more i could offer.

on top of it i didn't plan something right and our concert is in 3 days and we are left with no sitter. i don't honestly feel that 3 days away is "last minute", but in a sense i guess it is...i cannot seem to find anyone that is available to watch Haylee. it is my fault since i was supposed to make arrangements awhile ago, but with the busy summer and planning and work and my scatter brained crazy mind it did not happen. we have a few options, but hopefully something will work out. if not...i guess i will be sneaking her in....just kidding. it's just overwhelming because i thought of at least 5 people who COULD do it, but when i asked they already have plans. kind of scary. i'll be doing a lot of praying tonight to find someone....eeek. i'm worried about it bigtime right now. i just want to cry because i feel like an idiot for not thinking of getting a sitter prior to 3 days before the concert. idiot. classic me at times. i guess at least i can admit it. my brain is all over the place. i sometimes just think i think TOO fast and either the words don't come out right {which is why i may seem shy in public or in person...but not on my blog or in an email...i can sort out my thoughts and it comes naturally for me on here...Tim is the complete opposite i think.}.

anyway i KNOW this is sounding like a pity party, it's not. just a vent. and i can vent on my own blog. i have so many wonderful things to be grateful for...i just hate when i feel like a failure at things. i know it is just SATAN at his evil ways trying to destroy the confidence i have built up inside. he seems to attack me when i just start getting back into God's word and my self-help books too. go figure. he knows when to get me, but he's not going to prevail. i'm happy for that. i'm happy to have God here to give me all. He is my all. when my friends and family fail me, He is always here....hmmm...i wonder if he babysits? ;)

humility and generosity

you always HOPE you have both, right? but i stepped outside myself today and took a glance to make sure and at times i was astounded by what i discovered. sometimes i'm not humble. sometimes i do not put others first. i think being a mom and a wife you have to...in some form...put your spouse and child before your own needs and i feel like i really {try to} do that. but sometimes, i don't. i'm not condemning myself in any way {i used to, alot in fact} but i'm just stating facts about myself. i don't think being humble means continuously putting others before you so that you never put yourself first. but sometimes i felt myself feeling a little selfish when i shouldn't have.

humility and generosity - - i do believe - - go hand in hand also. i mean, to humble yourself IS fulfilling the commitment of being generous, no? i guess i am just thinking about these two things because that is what has been on my mind since the message at church on Sunday. :)

mainly two things, questions rather, i've been asking myself...how can i {melissa} be more humble and generous? so i am trying, striving to be that better person. to take that higher road. to humble myself to others. i feel like i'm a GREAT listener - so i can humbly sit there while my friend tells me all of the issues in her life and NOT compare her life to mine {because sometimes people don't need to hear that...sometimes people just need someone TO hear them}. i can be generous and bring that friend or co-worker that pen she needs or pull that file out of the cabinet for her so that is one less thing he/she need do. i can be generous in that sense or be generous with my time with a friend who needs me.

anyway...just thought i would share some of my thoughts. :) i love writing them down...

life is like a roller coaster...

sometimes you get on and it's a WILD ride! it's been like this for more lately. i think a lot just going on and i'm just such an emotional girl. lol. it has it's good and bad moments. it just seems like crappy things are happening lately, but today some things were mixed in the middle. good and bad.

like this morning my friend called to tell me her car and purse were stolen last night. which is obviously a BAD thing. i just get so emotionally involved and i almost actually cried for her! what a horrible thing to have to deal with on a weekend!! there's more that involved which i won't blog about but it just adds pressure to the whole saga. it just stinks!

then i had a GREAT day, the weather was beautiful, we drove around and just rolled down the windows, drove by the beaches, enjoyed the niceness of the day. got a few things at my fav organic market and just chilled. it was an easy going day. oh and i took Haylee to an agent interview, which she says she rocked! ;) we shall see!! fingers and hearts crossed.

and on the other hand i think - i feel rather - like i'm getting a sinus infection. all achy and my sinus pressure is killin' me. Haylee has a really bad canker sore and was hot and not feelin' good either all day, she took a few naps and i took a good one hour nap.

then Tim went out to get a few things and he came home with some PRETTY flowers! it was funny and sweet - my friend at work and i were just talking about flowers and i mentioned how i hadn't gotten any flowers in awhile and bam! it's like Tim read my mind! ;) he knows i'm not the traditional red roses girl too, he got me some pretty lavendar/purple flower that are exotic and pretty looking! i will have to take some pics of them. so sweet my hubba wubba is! i love him dearly. sometimes he can be a pain, but a good pain. ha ha!

and then (are you getting motion sickness yet??) - - tonight Tim mentioned something about how Miley's tummy looked saggy...i had just looked at it last night to see if it was healing and it was looking fine. well tonight it was HORRIBLE. all bloody and really hard and PUFFY bigtime. not good. so Tim had to take her to the doggy ER. he's still there in fact and it's 11:15pm. argh...not happy about that AT ALL. we were in a HORRID mood (both of us) about it and i feel bad, but sometimes i really just don't want a dog. they are so much work. and they are expensive. almost as expensive (if not more at times) than a kid! so we will see how Miley is, hopefully it's not too pricey of an infection. not good timing for that!!!!!!! but when is an emergency ever good timing come to think of it? :P

so anyway...this and some other things going on in life are just causing me to go on an emotional roller coaster ride. :) i think Satan sometimes thinks he has the upper hand, but it's not really going to get me down. i have faith in my higher power (Jesus Christ) and He is going to reign over these issues and my emotions and i just know there are better days in store! :)) things otherwise have been great! thanks for listening to me vent....i know i do that a lot lately.

today was a *GREAT* day!

so this morning was awesome. first of all it was pajama day at Haylee's learning center so all of the kids were in their cute jammies. Haylee was in her monkey set, it was just adorable! :) so that made the morning a little easier since she just got to wear her jammies. i wish i could wear my jammies to work, how awesome would THAT be?!!?

then i got to work and my friend Nate left me some surprises in my desk cabinet. well i guess you kind of have to know he is a HUGE FRIENDS buff and quotes them a lot...well i never get it because i've maybe since a half of an episode of FRIENDS? so i had mentioned something to my other friend about it {she has never seen FRIENDS either} so he left me all SIX seasons in my desk for me to watch...so i can speak Nate. i just thought it was hilarious, i was laughing so hard! he also lent me a book and left me a cd i had been asking for forever. so my morning started off nice! i am excited actually to start my FRIENDS watching journey. we will see if i actually like it or not. ;) Tim doesn't like FRIENDS, so i guess i'm on my own in watching all six seasons....LOL!

work was good...went by semi-fast. then we all got home and we did what i really like to do which is drive around and sight see...even if it's the next cities over. just look at other places and go to different stores and just browse. i don't know, it sounds like an old married thing to do when i type it out, but it's actually a lot of fun. Haylee falls asleep and we just talk...about our day...about the future...about our careers...about life. it's peaceful usually. i like it a lot. :) we were out so long that it was past 7pm and realized we needed to get Haylee something for dinner...hee hee. we stopped by the most BEAUTIFUL Taco Bell i have ever seen. this TB was pimped out! it had granite and tile flooring...the bathrooms were the same...cushy seating to sit and wait before they take your order...NICE wrought iron tables and chairs with umbrellas outside and a huge black granite water fountain with black shiny rocks on the outside. it was SO weird, i've never been to a Taco Bell that didn't have multi-BRIGHT colored walls and smelled a little funny. it was classy....ha!

oh i forgot we went to Chick's sporting goods, i love that store. they have really cute clothes for Haylee, she got 3 new shirts for the new school year. they're getting ready to have their huge tent sale of the year, so they have a pre-sale going on and i got a cute Billabong shirt to wear to my concert next week! ;) i'm excited about it i guess...enough to blog about it. ha ha!

tonight i've just been reading while Tim plays his NCAA football game on XBOX {boys will be boys}...he is totally counting down the days to football too it's hilarious. oh boy...i can't wait, lol. actually i'm getting into it more this year too. trying at least! it's almost 11pm and i'm so tired....i feel OLD going to bed this early, but i haven't been feeling great this week with my dang allergies attacking me. something in the air is making my throat hurt...wah! i'm not complaining that much, but hopefully nothing more becomes of it.

this weekend we have a few things planned...but for now i'm going to bed. *have a great weekend!*