soooooo ready...

i am really just SO ready to be doing what i love {and loving what i do}, which is in essence photography.  i know i have been saying this for a long, long time.  i am so close to getting my DSLR {can Christmas come ANY sooner, puuuhlease?}, that i can TASTE it!

do you know how expensive cameras are?  and i don't just want to rush and get ANY ol' camera.  i really really really really REEEEEEEEALLLLLY want a Canon.  and it cannot be just ANY ol' Canon.  i really really really really REEEEEEALLLLY want a Digital Single Lens Reflux {DSLR}...at LEAST a 10 megapixel, WITH a lens.  that's is absolutely the bottom line for amateur (the one i want is around $800).  i understand that it will be my ONLY Christmas gift also.  i don't even care.  i am really itching to get my little hands on it.  i don't think i have wanted anything more than this actually.  :)  {materialistic, i know}

at Haylee's soccer game today i saw at least 3 of these cameras and my heart was just {almost in a jealous way, until i checked myself} hurting.  ;)  i know i can be dramatic.  but i just want to kick off my career and i cannot even start to LEARN what i want to narrow it down to until i have this camera.  i mean, i pretty much know this after years of a point-and-shoot digital camera....this much is true about me:

1.)  i love taking photos of babies & children, outdoors

and since i've taken a photo class...

2.)  i love abstract photos such as a simple sign, a tree, a shadow, a brick wall...or any object from a different angle which might not {at first} make it seem like you are looking at WHAT you are looking at {i hope that makes sense}

i know one thing also...out here {or anywhere kids and families are involved really} i would be able to make a career based on child photography.  as long as i put my different flair into it.  i'm thinking of doing people in general...but at first maybe children since i'm pretty used to this seeing i do it on a daily basis with my own little spawn.  ;)  

i just have a passion and if i just let my mind wonder, it is ALL i think about.  ALL.  i couldn't imagine a life without photos or photography.  it would be a definite SAD world.  it is how people relate, how we connect, it is a moment in time, it is life.  it is everything.  i love it {hmm can you tell?}.  it's an absolute JOY speaking with others who own my same view on it.  they totally understand me.  i know a lot of people who just don't, and that's ok.  God made us all different.  :)

anyway...Christmas is when Tim promises i will get my camera.  if Christmas comes sooner, i will not dwell on the fact that i don't have ANYthing to open on Christmas day, instead i will be stuck with a lens to my eye, focusing on the precious moments of my family & friends living in the  moment.  a moment (or moments) in time i will have documented for them and ones they will be able to share for lifetimes to come...........